Plastic Bubble

So you found yourself all alone
In the middle of the circus, in the modern age Rome
So you don't have a home,
I also don't have a home, welcome to the club
So life sucks, yes, don't be so dramatic, don't be so drastic
Seriously, even from the bubble, did you really think life was fantastic?
So hard to see you, hiding behind the plastic
So hard to find something real, behind all the plastic

When it's time, we are out of time, don't you realize?
All we have is now, or never
Never or forever, think less, act more
Time is fading, soon you might look
And don't find my ghost anymore
Soon you might look, and don't find yourself anymore

Reality bites, but it keeps you fighting
Sugar coated disguises, will just keep you dying
It just keeps you lying, hiding
On the bubble, soon you will have no more air to breath
You say you want to be free, but the cycles always repeat
So how do you expect it to cease?

Me, I no longer try to hide
I got used to no shelter
bring on the Helter Skelter
I have crossed the line, I am not fine,
You are not fine, nothing is fine,
But I won't hide, I'm willing to fight
What about you, you have to decide
To get real, to start to heal,
Or to remain in disguise?

Knives

Everytime, that I have no choice
Everytime, that my voice is ignored
Everytime, that I wonder if that is all, and nothing more

It is like a knife right through my heart
A heart whose existence was unknown to myself
Before you appeared, now only you can stop it from hurting and bleed inglês

Everytime, you disappear
Everytime, you hide the truth from me
Everytime, you stay in silence, it is the greatest violence
That I feel

I don't know, and I can't decide
If you will remove all these knives
I was stabbed so many times, through all the years
I wonder, under the blanket of fears
Will you let me heal you? Will you heal me?
Will you let me save you, will you save me?
Will we live, will we be?
Or will we die painfully,
Victimized by all the knives?
I don't understand, I wonder
We can both win together
Or die apart
Don't you realize?

Maybe I Should Just Leave

Since day one
All the hostility towards me
All the lies
Guided by hope, I wanted to believe
But now I see

I failed all the time
I keep falling all the time
I have no right, of a real life
No more lying, I despite
My own company
I hate my fucking guts
Maybe I should just leave!

They were right
All this time
I am nothing but a problem
And I am going nowhere
Too sick
No reason to breathe
As I just bleed

Nobody really needs me
Too damaged, need to be free
See no future
See only the mockery of fate
So misplaced
Too sick of your world, too sick of me
Why am I even still here?
Maybe I should just leave!

Dear Ana

You made a vow
So you need to be strong
Resist, control
Time fading away too slow
Can't seen to feed my soul, so

Just drink more water
And burn it all, burn it all
Salvation, on starvation
Freedom, on starvation

I pledge to Ana

In Silence

Desperation and desolation
Took me over
I was alone with my ghosts
Yelling at me repeatedly
That there is no point in staying
Than there is nothing left for me here
And I can't ignore them for they have the facts
And I only have a collection of big failures and broken illusions
So it's obvious that I should just disappear

Then I called and asked for help
And silence was my answer
They have a life to live
And I am just a ghost, empty and lost
With only the constant voices of my own ghosts to keep me company

I was forsaken here, I will keep trapped here
Purgatory, Sanatory
No present, no future
No life, no death
Just nothing, just the silence, emptiness and loneliness

I better get used to it, for it's my destiny
What ' s left of me will fade too and I will die here
So I better get used to this silence
And to have the ghosts as my company
It's so scary here, and nobody is gonna save me
(I thought you would save me)
But there is no future for me

I will just watch what's left of me fade away too
Since there's nothing else I can do
I will just disappear, in silence
Nobody will hear my agony, in silence
Alone, my death sentence, in silence

Omega

All of this, the jubilee
No longer here
Nothing but pain and fear
Somehow, she ' s always here
It's so bittersweet
The pain of the distance
The fear of losing her
To this big  bad cold world

Broken childhood
Leading to corrosion
Christian morality infection
And academic obsession
Take away the inner peace
A vicious cycle,  that needs to cease
Or else, you will never be free

She was so glad, a light so bright
Dressed in black
And now she' s dead
Lost in inner implosion, between alcohol and cigarretes
I wish she would come back

She got lost in all the confusion
Too pure to deal with the ways of this world
Getting lost in the corruption
Of this madness we call life
Fading away in the dark of the night
Oh, how I miss her light

She's dead, just like me
She's dead, just like Lenore
Oh, I wonder, is it too late
for both of us to be saved?

All These Questions

Where are you?
Where am I?
Please, don't leave me
I will die here, I refuse to die here
But maybe I already did

Won't you bring me back to life?
You did it once, you can do it twice
But lately you have been leaving me in darkness
I wish you would show me yourself again
I remember how your light used to ease my pain

I search for answers, I search for a way
But now you just throw me more questions
But whatever, will you take my hand
And fly away?

Some questions do need answers
Am I really yours?
Are you really mine?
Will you hold my hand? Will you let me fall?
Will we both die separated, or will we live together?
Will this get even worse?
Or finally better?
Is there still anything for me on this life?
Os it still worthy to fight?

Help me to answer these questions
That keep on haunting my mind