Death Certificate

All I ever had, all I ever was
Dead and lost somewhere in the past
It took me so long to open my eyes
Too much time trapped in denial, but now I see
That there's nothing left here
And no need for a voice, no one's here
Along with my soul, fear starts to disappear
The entire board, clear

I am not pure, that's for sure
But I fought so hard, and deserve something more
Often I make no sense, sometimes I snap, but what did you expected?
I just react, to the way I was raised, attacked, backstabbed,
A spawn of violence, hate, and misery,
So how else could I be?
There's nothing left of me

They are all dead and gone,
Now I bury all my names,
To no more schemes,
To no more games,
Try to find a way to wash away all this shame,
And just forget about myself, forget it all,
It's all gone, I just need to go back home

I am not a cure, that's for sure
But i'm also not part of the disease,
Is it so hard to see?
I am just nobody, I only want peace
And all the rollercoaster madness to cease
So now I bury all my names,
They only bought me pain and shame,
Now I know, it's all lost, I must bury it all
Somwhere in the past, gotta make it fast

Leave myself behind, and forget
All I ever was, all I ever had,
For it's all dead, it's all dead
As dead as any plan I ever made,
As dead as my soul and my heart,
But I can't stop now, I've got this far

So tonight I bury all my names,
All my choices, all my voices,
There's no one here,
To hear, anyway

Tonight, I curse all I ever was, all I was supposed to be,
And bury it all in this casket, so deeply
This casket of shames,
That I must wash away, before I go back home
Went full circle, it's all lost and gone
Gotta fulfill my destiny
Gotta embrace it, my cursed destiny
Of pain, loneliness, and darkness

This is my death certificate,
The best one I can get,
Before I keep on wandering, undead
Crave, for the grave, but can't rest,
Just bury myself in the past, and keep on wandering, no more wondering
To fulfill my cursed destiny

Tonight, I see clearly with no light
I see how I despite,
All I ever was, how I was naive to believe,
That I was not deceased

How I lost, all I ever had,
And how there's no turning back
I wander, for no reason at all,
Stumbling in the wall, undead
Murder, suicide, at the same time,
I can't feel, can't touch, can't heal,
I'm not even real
Wandering, with no purpose, without a death certificate

So tonight, I bury all my names
After I burnt they all in flames,
Call me what I really am,
I am nobody, the son of No One,
Just a ghost, just a shadow in your sun, a broken gun,
In the end of this road, free, of fear,
No one here, no one hear, this last tear,
Free, to disappear,
All the boards, clear