Nothing but a Mistake

Fuck life, I tried
And I failed, all this time
I’m nothing but a mistake,
That should never really be here
I’m just a bug in the system
A system that I will explode before I get out
For you won’t get rid of me, world
I will get rid of you instead
I picture a life, but I don’t deserve it
I’m gonna drown in my emptiness, it makes no difference
For I am already dead

I am just a bunch of broken pieces
Damaged beyond repair
I try to do it right
But it always go wrong
Because I am nothing but a mistake
I cannot be fixed, so I must be erased

Nothing of this should ever be, I should never be
I see the end is getting near, I don’t know why I’m still here
I must disappear
I’m just a mistake, I have no life, never had
I was born already dead
And all that I want, I don’t deserve any of that
So fuck it, enough  of tolerating my annoying presence
Enough of lying to myself, I must accept reality
I’m just a ghost in the machine,
A bug in the system,
I’m just not worthy of anything

So fuck it, why do I still fight
I will never have what I want
I can only see it in the distance
I cannot touch anything
I’m the ghost of Vincent Price
Reading tales told twice
I’m just Edward Scissorhands
Hidden in the basement of the Phantom of the Opera
Oh, how I despite myself
What kind of abomination am I?
Well, it does not matter
Soon I will be away forever

It’s not the world that is getting rid of me
I’m getting rid of the world
But specially I’m getting rid of myself
The mistake will be fixed, I’m almost done
Everything will fall into place
When I’m gone

I tried, I did my best
I tried, I fought, with all I had
Still I ended up dead
I’m such a fucking loser

1524

Copycat, copycat
Caught on academic trap
You think that’s all in your future?
That’s ALL you want for your future?
Obsessed, you’ve been caught
On Martin Luther’s web
They will drain, your brain,
And fill your skull with post – modern crap

You will spend years, to get your degree
Then you go to London, where they don’t even have the best of it
You should go to Cambridge, Oxford shit
Did you know it?
No, you did not, that just goes to show
That even tough I despite all this academic crap
I still know much more than you about this trap
Then you will get your master degree, after  SOME MORE YEARS
Then you will finally achieve, what you wanted so much
To enter the industrial machine, where they will suck your blood

You will work all day, for SO MANY MORE YEARS
Why? Because you want MONEY, luxury, possessions
And in the end of this morbid story, you will end up drained and empty
With only all your fancy shit to fill the void, will you be really RICH?

Have you ever heard of the compulsory “Education” plan?
Oh no, History is so boring, right?
Too bad that History controls your fucking LIFE
So if you don’t know where the hell you are,
And how the hell things REALLY are,
It will be too late when you finally realize
That they have stole all your energy
And that you have wasted away all your LIFE

Can money buy you?
Do you hate yourself that much,
To even sell YOURSELF?
Will you sell your soul,
So you can have all the luxury you got used to
And proudly become a academic zombie, a workaholic?

Are you really that weak? No, I don’t think so
Will you waste the unique opportunity you have now to really LIVE and be FREE
And at all costs, go back to prison?
So you can have all the luxury back? I know you are better than that

There are many things money can’t buy
Like real freedom, beauty, poetry, happiness, satisfaction, LIFE
So, is that what you really want for your future?
To be just one more of these creatures?

Get money to study, study
So you can work, work….TO GET MONEY
Then spend, and spend
On vicious label addiction
Because your life now is so empty
And now, when you finally realize that….
You are already about to DIE!

It’s not too late to desintoxicate
This is your chance to escape
Or you can go back to the plastic bubble
But it would be just a waste of time,
Since the extinction of this bubble…Is about to arrive
You can face the real world and live on it now,
Or you will have to do it soon anyway
So why give up of yourself? You hate yourself that much?
Have you forgot your inner strength?
Limited resources, poverty, improvisation
This is the REALITY, and no one can no longer hide from it
So why not start today?
If you will have to start tomorrow, anyway?

Mirror Games

We are so filthy inside
So many lose their souls on the proccess
Of corruption, corrosion,
Vile propaganda, contamination
Only solution now, lies on extermination

We are so ashamed of ourselves
Some Just disguise it better than others
We are useless, and helpless,
We always think the worst, and we always do the worst
Jesus was not able to save even himself
But we do need salvation...From ourselves

Somebody protect me from myself
Poison running in my veins, I´m always bleeding Black
Through my stigmas, carrying this heavy bag

And I know my essence is safe
I must seek and find purity
Somewhere far away from here
Away from all the mirror distortion,
Away from all the material pollution,
Self – Destruction, the limitations of this Shell will pass
My thoughts will be only my own,
My essence will always remain safe
I will reunite with them, once I erase
This stupid mistake

We are so filth inside
We must wash ourselves away
Nullify, to find
Who´s really only you on your mind
Sick of synthetic modifications
Those are not my motivations
The solution is easy now
Total extermination

Today

Everyone's gonna die
Don´t you know why?
So why even try?

Everyone's gonna burn
Maybe we can even escape
But how far can we go
Before if it´s our turn?

Haven't you seen the sun today?
Fading away, everyday
Just like you, your energy, your life
But it does not really matters, anyway

This is not home, it's just a Lair
We should not be even here, we should not be anywhere
Our best destination is nowhere
So why do we even care?

We are all gonna die,
We are all living a lie
We are not even living at all
We were born already dead
So what difference it makes?
We were already born on oiur deathbed
So just do whatever you want
Just say whatever you have to say
Before it's too late

We are all dead
Reality is nothing but a illusion
Powered by lines of confusion
Just do whatever you want,
Just say whatever you have to say, today
Before it´s too late
It´s all just a mistake, anyway

Lost My Mind

I have always did as I was supposed to
I have always did everything you told me to
I always sung your song, until I realized
Something was wrong
When I opened my eyes,
Saw right through the sun, beyond the skies

Then I lost my mind
I lost my mind
And did not wanted to rewind
Lost in space and time, searching for a moment, surrounded by the blind

Now I know what I’m really supposed to do
Now I know what I want to
Now I just do what I want to, the way I want to
The best way I can, everyday
Try to live, and when the night arrives
I realized that I died
Why, why, why?

Then I lost my mind
Don´t know where to find
So tired, surrounded by the blind
Have you seen my mind?

Now you will do everything as I told you too
Now sing louder than you, now my truth is the only truth
Now you will do everything as you are supposed to
I did all the best I could, and still I failed
I did everything right, still I died
Why, why, why?

Just lost, between confusion, theatre of illusions,
Lost in the moment, trying to break free from myself, from your world
Suffocated by the infection, of the blind,
I have lost my mind

Error Macro

You look so familiar
But still I guess I've never seen you before
Your pathetic illusion of power
You have no leadership at all upon me

Oh no, another sunrise!
Another day around these crazy motherfuckers
They all wear a disguise, and it's the same thing outside,
But I did my time, and I have the right
Anywhere but here

There's no easy way out
There's something to be proud
I shout, but silence
Is what is really loud

What's going to be now, one more excuse?
You gotta think before you lie
You gotta think before you lie

I see your end is getting near
I tried to warn you, you did not wanted to hear
It´s not my problem anymore,
If you are so decrepit, I have seen this before

Let's go to another sunrise
You look so fragile
Have you lost your disguise?
I'm broken and sore,
But I'm still so much better than you
You are so powerless,
And I own you, own you

There's a time to be proud
There's a right way to be proud
I always used to shout
Now listen to my silence speaking so loud

What's going to be now,
Just another plan, what you want to prove?
Stuck in the quicksand, sinking, you can no longer move
You gotta think before you lie
You gotta think before you die!

I never felt, everything was a lie
It was never real,  and I could never see
So I had to die

I never feel, everything is a lie
I never feel, everything
Nothing but a lie

Grénoble

So you thought you could convince me that you are the boss?
I see right through you, right through your disguise
I see clearly how weak and putrid you really are

I don’t think you realize
When you betray, there is always a price to pay
I won’t sink with you, I will float
You must find another scapegoat
There is always a price to pay,
And you will pay it twice

It’s the same thing, it’s the same thing
You always think you will win,
It’s always a chess game,
And I am always aware and prepared
For your next moves
And you still think you can win
You are so lame

Now my brand new wings ar open wide
I will fly away, flirting with life and suicide
You posed so well, but you could not keep the disguise
I always knew, you are not a man, just a lice

Same thing, but not for me
Same thing, but not for me anymore
Same thing, but I´m proud I can be without
I´m out

And when you fall, on the grave you made up for yourself
You will fall alone, just like her
It’s so ironic, almost a joke
The only difference is that you will turn into smoke

When you have no honor,
When you go too far with the play
There is always a price to pay,
While you sink, I´m getting into my boat,
And going away
You will have to find another scapegoat
There is always a price to pay,
And you will pay it twice

It’s the end, goodbye
I’m picking by boat, goodbye
I’m disappearing on the road, goodbye
It’s the end, no matter how much you pretend,
It’s the end of the lie, the end of the line, goodbye