Closure

I saw those creatures marching, just more meat to grind
Walked across cities, searching for peace of mind
And it was there all the time, all I had to find
Now I don´t want to, and even If I did
It´s too late to rewind
But i´m too sick, of these conversations in my mind
Oh no, here they come again
Too tired of this self – inflicted pain
Try to be friends with myself, all in vain

Too much voices on my mind
Too late to rewind
Too much noise on my mind
Now they will have to be quiet,
I finally found what I had to find

Confusion grows, explosions and implosions
I always have to kill myself to survive
I´m so annoying, I need to get rid of myself,
So I can be alive
Because I cant´t stand, my own presence anymore
I despite my own company, I can´t understand
How the hell can anybody like me
Oh no, here they come again
All in vain, all this pain

Too much conversations in my mind
(I must shut them up at least for a while)
Too much noise in my mind
(But is okay, now I finally found what I had to find)

And I don´t mind, If it´s too late
Because I don´t want to rewind
I ´m  too sick of beind idle, I will start moving forward
And I will no longer lose to myself
Not anymore, not again

Going Nowhere

Do somebody save you
When you are lost in the night
Looking for some of your inner light
Do somebody hear you
When you pray for your God, to ease your pain,
In vain, just keep on walking,
Going nowhere, going nowhere

Listen to me, while I listen to myself
I listen to you, If you have something to say
Try to listen to yourself,
Only you can answer all your own questions
All we need is to dare,
As we keep on walking,
Going nowhere, going nowhere

Do you see the skies are cracking, can you see through it´s wounds?
We don´t need eyes, to see the true lights
It´s all falling down now, fading away
Setting us free, so let´s just keep on walking
Let´s just keep on talking
Cause nobody cares
All we need is to dare
Going nowhere, going nowhere

Grey Part II

It all went away
Now it will all pass
It all went away
So now it all will pass
All I have to do is to wait
All I have to do is to be patient, and to wait

On the other side, of agony and misery
Born of tragedy, I sense a change is near
Might be the end of it all
Or just another beginning
I´m no longer sure
If I´m losing or winning

I might be here, or there, anywhere, nowhere
I don´t know where I am, or If I am still somewhere to be found
I no longer see myself around
And I no longer care

So I do anything to reach this stage
I know it´s all just a phase
I try anything to keep myself on this state
But I´m always falling in disgrace
Can´t stand this place

So I wait, and wait
No longer patiently
I wait, I wait, all the time
Constantly
And I just keep on waiting, and fading,
Fighting and dying,
All the time
Somewhere between black and white

And I can´t die
For I was never really alive
Just a ghost, floating, wandering
I am nothing......

Find

Anything, I can find, it in my mind
Anything, as long as it´s in my mind
But I can´t rewind
We can never rewind

Maybe we should just stop it
But we are always looking for more meat to grind
Maybe we should just stop it
But we always need some more meat to grind
And we can never rewind

Grey

Drowning in the obsolete
Trapped in the same patterns, everyday
So predictable, even before I hear your voice
I already know, what you will say
Between explosions and implosions
It´s all fading away
The Hunter is now the prey

Moving pieces, on a starry game
So bright, the spotlights, hiding our shame
Walking in circles, the end of the road
Is always the same

Rehearsing to a new scene
A small change on the script,
A small change on the scheme
Will define your next step
While you think you are walking with your own legs
And it does not matter If I can see the strings
They are still there, everwhere

Moving pieces, on a board game
Skies full of light, hiding the shame
Walking in circles, the clocks will decide for you
And in the end you will have no one else to blame

It´s Just a stupid game
And I´m so sick of it
But like everyone else, I Just keep on playing
I don´t know if I´m winning, I don´t know if I´m losing
Maybe it Just does not matter, so whatever

I can see us dying
No more Eagles flying
I can see us dying, everyday
And we keep on trying, to find a way
And we keep on diving, fading away
And there´s nothing I can do

It´s just a stupid game
Read the patterns, already defined
It´s always the same
We all should live on the fastlane
We are all gonna die, anyway
I´m so sick, I want to get away
My only solace,
The hunter is now the prey
This is all pointless, life is just a play
You can see the hands,
But they are always there
You are going down,
And I´ve Just grown too tired too care

So whatever, forever, and never,
They are everywhere
But I´m nowhere

It´s Just Life

You were born on a lame hospital and took your first breath,
Filling your lungs with our adorable toxic oxygen, then your father arrives smoking a cigarette
Your mother is pissed of because she never wanted you to get born in first place,
But don´t worry, she will never let you forget that you are nothing but a mistake
Take your first steps and learn your first words on a hostile environment
Ignored and neglected, resulting on a poor development
Enjoy some phony birthday parties arranged to make you think,
That someone actually cares about you
And you will try to believe it, because you want it to be truth
But there´s no need for drama, we all bleed, and it never cease
It´s just life

Grow up in poverty, surrounded by crime and violence
Constant fights around you in the decadent place you call home
So you turn to TV and the videogame
They replace your stole innocence,
And keep you away from all that nonsense,
Helping you to forget, and locking your mind in silence
And you keep on forgetting, until you forget about your own essence
You no longer know who you really are
But who cares, your mother is crying, and your father is chatting on some bar
You are already too numb and too cold
So you will just follow the tales you were told
And you will be automatic for so many time, no need to be dramatic
It´s just life

The streets, so many people
The families, so many people
The schools, so many people
But none of them give a damn, not even about themselves
Running in circles, bumping in the walls while chasing the light
It´s just life

Then you go to school, to get brainwashed by what they call education
Because you need to be programmed in order to serve the nation, you know?
You also need to make some friends, it´s easy, just do whatever they do, forget about yourself
Pretend you are stupid, If they find out you actually have a personality
The bullies and criminals will be out to get you, sojust follow the stream of morality
And don´t worry about it, it ends as fast as it starts, are you willing to fight?
It´s just life

Now you are a adult, or at least that´s what this thing called “Law” will tell you
So now you must show your skills, your qualities,
And that means making money, get a job, any crappy job
So you will be a valuable and respectful member of society, whatever that means
Even better If you get famous or get a degree
That´s the only way your parents will be proud of you,
Otherwise they will despite you to the bones no matter what you do

You also better get married and start a family
Because you are already nearly 30, years old oh no, already over 30?
And not even a boyfriend, a girlfriend?
You better hurry and find someone because people will start talking, you know
How come you are “Alone”? Man, you need a woman right now, woman, you need a man man, right now, are you gay, or are you just a freak?
It´s not their business, but still they won´t let you be
They need to live your life, because they already lost their own,
A long time ago, when they shaped themselves to fit in,
So now they have no life to live
Except the everyday tasks they were programmed to
Except the everyday patterns they were shaped into
And they will die in misery, in failure,
Without never even have lived at all
But before, they will still torture you and annoy you for many years
They need this, to hide ther own fears, you know?
So nevermind, there´s nothing to worry about
You were born already dead, it´s sad, but it does not matter
It won´t last forever, not like your pride
So just finish the line, with no expectations
Because in this race,there is no prize
It´s just life

The malls, so many people
The offices, so many people
The parties, so many people
The universities, so many people
And they all walk in circles, like fools, merely tools,
Bumping in the walls, while chasing for the light
Fully convinced that they are really alive
It´s pathetic, and a waste of time,
But don´t worry, it does not matter
It´s just life

Tuesday

Now you know, what it´s like
Now you want to be around,
But where were you before?
Now I Just don´t need you anymore

Now you know, how it hurts
Because now, the same knife is cutting though both of us
And I no longer want, your company,
Now you know how it feels like
Because now you bleed just like me

Just another day, just another ordinary day
Trying to find a way out, looking for a way to escape
I´m free, for I have totally washed you away
I´m safe, for soon I will be far away

Now it´s too late, we must be separated
Now it´s too late, soon I´ll  be gone
And you will be completely alone
Now it´s too late, none of this can be erased
Now it´s too late, you can´t fix your mistake

And there´s no other way
This is the game you choosed to play
You cannot be saved
I´m going away.....

Just another ordinary day,
Followed by Just another ordinary night
With  this knife, this knife is only mine

Lost Kids

All these lost kids, I see them around
I see them, everywhere I look at
I look down on them, I dismiss them
I tend to forget, that I used to be Just like them

Naive dreamers, partying all the time
Naive dreamers, trying to save the world
One day, they will grow up too
One day, they will get fed up too
Then they will see it through

And they will realize, we are all doomed
And they will learn, to survive, in disguise
Or they will all die

Try, try, try, you can try
You try all the time
The more you try, the more you die
Because all they sold you, is a lie

Naive dreamers, all caught in corruption
Naive dreamers, shock therapy is the solution
One day, you will realize
That you have to die, in order to survive

Try, try, try, you always try
All the time, and the more you try, the more you die
You suffer, so much, and you don´t even know why
All your dreams, become nightmares, all the monsters come alive
Because everything they ever sold you is a lie

(I look at all these lost kids
Most of them, will never make it
To the other side, to open eyes
To the inner light
And I look down on them, and I dismiss them,
I tend to forget, once I was Just like them.....)

Mirror Games

We are so filthy inside
So many lose their souls on the proccess
Of corruption, corrosion,
Vile propaganda, contamination
Only solution now, lies on extermination

We are so ashamed of ourselves
Some just disguise it better than others
We are useless, and helpless,
We always think the worst, and we always do the worst
Jesus was not able to save even himself
But we do need salvation...From ourselves

Somebody protect me from myself
Poison running in my veins, I´m always bleeding Black
Through my stigmas, carrying this heavy bag

And I know my essence is safe
I must seek and find purity
Somewhere far away from here
Away from all the mirror distortion,
Away from all the material pollution,
Self – Destruction, the limitations of this Shell will pass
My thoughts will be only my own,
My essence will always remain safe
I will reunite with them, once I erase
This stupid mistake

We are so filth inside
We must wash ourselves away
Nullify, to find
Who´s really you, in your mind
Sick of synthetic modifications
These are not my motivations
The solution is easy now
Total extermination

One Mistake

One mistake, that´s what it takes
And your life is going down
A minute of distraction,
And you are already about to drown

They sell dreams, all the time
You starve, the food you buy, is made of plastic
Be wise, be drastic
Otherwise, you won´t survive

Perfection is a illusion
To be perfect, is to just be whatever you are
And if we die now, it does not matter, we had won
Cause we have gone so far

One mistake, that´s what it takes
And they will try to bring you down
Stay awake, cause there´s always enemies around
Ready to make you drown

The Damage is Already Done

I was born, and I was told

There I had a life, that I was supposed to live
I followed all the rules, and it only got worse
Then I broke them all, and still I could not escape
Jumping from hell to hell
Now I feel like, finally
I have no new tale to tell

No matter what I try, what I do
The damage is already done
Broken inside, a mind torn apart
I can keep on walking
But the damage is already done

It´s getting harder and harder to breathe
I´m suffocated and surrounded by disease
The walls keep closing in, I wonder
If there is really a way out
I´m not sure if I should still resist,
Maybe I was just meant to fall
But if I have to fall, I will fall proud
And just let my silence speak loud

Too many wounds have healed,
But the damage is already done
No matter how much I fight, how much I feel
The damage is already done

 I should not be here, is so clear
I´m just a bug in the system, I should not be
So how anything could work for me?
I don´t belong here, in the shadows, I will disappear

I always tried to live
To have some peace
But now I´m too tired, too weak
And the hell, from hell to hell, it never cease
I guess I´ve had enough, maybe I should just leave

I´m already dead, maybe I should just accept the fact,
I´m just a mistake, totally misplaced
But I keep on fighting, I keep on trying
Since I arrived, from the putrid womb,
I was already put on trial
I still see a way out, I still see the cure
Am I on denial?

I do everything I can,
But the damage is already done
I still fight, I still try,
I still try to live, but I always die
Head over heels, the damage is already done
Everything I feel, head over heels, it will never heal
The damage is already done
Nowhere left to run,
So now, please give me a gun