I Am a Man

Unwanted, and rejected
Abused while still in the crib,
Mama would allow it, why would she cares
I just happened to be there, and how would I compete
With a criminal bitch
It's not even logical, definitely not fair,
But I'm a man, I was born without a vagina
But why the hell would they care?

I was born without a vagina, I'm just their mistake
I was born without a vagina, society considers me a plague
I was born without a vagina, so I will always be second place
I was born without a vagina, so I am never safe

I was thrown in the streets, I could even be arrested
Always guilty by default, even when I'm the one attacked
Sent to endless exile in the middle of nowhere,
But why would you care, I commited this horrible crime
I was born without a vagina, I'm not a psychopatic pink bitch
So it's not fair, but fuck it, whatever, right?
I should not even be there, so
Why the hell would you care?

I was born without a vagina, so I don't have any rights
I was born without a vagina, so I can't be a concubine
Damn, what a bad luck, I was born a man,
Yeah, that's what I am, and I do what I can,
But it makes no difference at all, none of it
Just because i'm not a bitch
No logic at all, then I'm the one who is always crazy
What the fuck?
But well, I won't cut off my dick,
So I will never be your bitch
So well, fuck it,
Now I am the one who don't really care

I was born without a vagina, so I can't paint my nails, that would make of me a faggot
In the narrow view of the maggots
I was born without a vagina, so I can't have emotions
I was born without a vagina, so I'm the easy target
For all society corrosions, all biological and moral distortions,
No matter what I do, I will never get any respect
And you know what, now i no longer care about that

Because I am a man, and that's what I will always be
I won't cut off my dick, I will never be your bitch
I no longer wish to be accepted, lost the mother, don't need another,
Will no longer crawl for any affection or attention,
I'm not a bitch, so I will never have daddy's respect
Will always be a freak, in the eyes of a dead society
And well, just fuck it!

I'm a man, I'm not a bitch, it's not my problem
If that bothers you, so deal with it
I won't cut off my dick, I will never be your bitch
I will just jump on my dear river, swim and disappear,
Because I had enough, got too tired of all this sick shit

I saw it all, I will no longer fall
On such traps, now I'm always looking over my back
And I will stand for myself, yes, I have my rights
I need no plastic sun to shine, I have my own lights
And it will be always like this, always the one to blame,
Always the same game, then I'm the one insane,
Public Enemy Number One, well, it does not really matters,
For now I don't really care anymore, I'm done

Because I  am a man, I just do what I can, and that's all I will always be
I'm not a worthless bitch, will never be, so I can't be tamed
Yeah, I'm a man, should I be ashamed?
Well, I'm not, actually, I'm quite proud
And I had enough, so I'm out
I was never a part of any of it, anyway,
So I better just fade in peace back home, where I really belong,
I'm not even part of the band, so I must sing my own song, alone
Everybody wins, so I must be gone

So go ahead and treat me like shit
So go ahead and ignore me
Just because i'm not a bitch

All these bitches, always annoying me
Putrid and disgusting political tools, a great show to entertain the fools
Pseudo - Activism, sexism, low self - esteem,
And they call it feminism, so they will feel useful
So they can pretend they are real women,
But they will still be always just worthless bitches,
Worshipped by the pathetic and weak

Soon they will pay the price,
All real men and women are about to rise
To wash away all this shameful disgrace
They will be the first ones to taste the rage
Of the dark mother, of the prince of the princes,
They will be all erased!

I see the violence against you,
Do you see the violence against me?
You don't give a damn about what I go through,
So well, I will not give a damn about you, too

Oh, I was born without a vagina
What a horrible crime
I was born without a vagina
So I have to be always kicke around,
And have no right of self - defense
I was born without a vagina,
So my existence is a offense
Well, fuck all that

So go ahead and treat me like shit
Go ahead and blame me
Just because i'm not a bitch

I am a man, I was born without a vagina, sorry if that bothers you
I was born without a vagina, so I am the one who is cruel
I was born without a vagina, so why would you hear when I call
I was born without a vagina, so I have no respect at all
And well, whatever, it is what is, it will be what it got to be
I am a man, yeah, that's me
Go ahead and blame me, ignore me, hate me
But you can never tame me
I no longer care
Why would anyone care?

I see the violence against you,
Do you see the violence against me?
You don't give a damn about my pain,
So why should I even care?
I will just stare,
I'm not even a part of this nightmare

I won't cut off my dick,
Yeah, I will never be your bitch,
I am what I am, and I will be what I have to be
So well, it's not my problem, if i'm your problem,
You just gotta  deal with it
I am what I am, and I am a man,
I will never be a worthless bitch!

Last Call

Wearing a black coat
Down the road
I don't, walk alone
On roads that I don't know
Its' no shame, to need some guide
Leaving behind, the fragile wall of pride
You need a map, don't you get that?
You are so sure that you know what you are doing
You pretend you are secure and safe
You run, and hide
Somwhere, so far
But I see, through your mask
And, I know who you really are

I only walk alone, the roads, that I already know
At this point, I got to walk them all,
So I can be a a guide,
Everyone needs it, even I need a guide sometimes
But you keep on lying, to me, and even worse,
You keep on lying and betraying yourself
Hiding like a scary child, behind the pale mask of pride
There's no choice, we all have to go, into the wild
But if you insist in playing this game, and just hide
You simply will not survive

You are lost....
So lost
And it's so sad, how you don't see that,
You are losing it,
You are losing it all
You are losing yourself,
You are losing to yourself,
Your pride, is taking away your prize
Your pride, will end up taking your life
On the highway to suicide,
So sad, you don't even realize
But well, if that's what you are really gonna buy
Do you even know the price?

I, will keep walking
My own road, until I reach this old familiar road that i always knew
Then I will finally breathe, again
I will let out, all the pain
It will not be in vain, no, not for me
I will walk those roads I miss so, back home
Then I will just disappear, I will be forever gone
I will be, finally free
And you will be, completely alone
With your pain, again
Time is ticking out....
For us all, so it's now or never,
All or nothing,
Forever, or never....Whatever

I wonder, if you know
Where are you standing now,
How low
I wonder if you realize, how much are you bleeding,
How much you are fooling yourself, thinking that you are winning,
In these silly games you play
How exposed you are,
While you think you are safe in your shelter, of
Cigarettes, alcohol, academics, mind games, energy drinks,
As your soul sinks....

So lost, in the rain
All your pain, will end up being in vain
Are you really sure which side of the track you are?
If you don't open your eyes now, from so very far
You will get slaughtered, by a bullet train

And I will have to just walk away
Master of nothing at all
If you really buy it,
I will have to just let you pay for it
Since I can help you climb all the hills
But no one can pay for your bills

When you decided, to buy this mask
Do you really know how much it costs?
Did you even looked at the price tag?
Yeah, it's a really cruel and cold world
And nothing here is for free
Do you really know the price?
Well, I know you can't pay for it,
It's just too high

All this illusion, you purchased
Desperatedly, trying to escape,
Will not save you from what's real,
All the placebos you purchased,
Will become the blade
That will seal your fate
And then, it will be too late
You obviously, still can get out,
But you must hurry up, for time is ticking out....

Yes, time is ticking out,
For us all,
In the speed, of light,
And soon, all these lights will be out
Leaving you lost and alone, in the dark
(Just because you were too proud)
Then, I will disappear,
I will be, no longer here,
I will be, on the otherside, of the waterfall
Hope to see you there,
After the fall,
After all

I'm also lost, lost inside myself
That means, I found myself, so
Now I can see the map, I can see it all,
And I got the call, I'm not even really here anymore
And all my holograms are fading, so
If you want to, join me on the walk...
Must do something real instead of just talk
It's now or never
All or nothing
Forever, or never....
Whatever?

Post - Modern Dracula

• Since the day I was born, I started to get torn
• Since day one, I've been always under the gun
• No one's son, cursed by the sun,
• Nobody's hero, waiting for the Zero
• Everyone's favorite villain, now trapped on a tomb
• Hated and rejected, since the putrid womb,
• Mudered a thousand times, totally wrecked,
• But somehow, I always ressurect
• I am still One, I will be always back
• 
  
• Hey, I might be dead, but I'm still here,
• Still trapped in this hell,
• Everyday I dwell, 
• In this sick spell,
• Post - Modern Dracula
• 
  
• Kill me, baby
• Kill me, baby
• Kill me, baby
• 
  
• Yeah, I am still One
• Even after I came undone
• Always under the gun,
• Mudered a thousand times, ignored and abandoned
• The favorite villain, someone to blame
• For all your shame
• That's my role, part of my whole
• Son of Belial, no longer in denial,
• Since I was born, I was always torn
• But once again, somewhere from the pain,
• I am reborn
• 
  
• Keep, on strking me with this spell,
• Cursed by the sun, vicious circles, repeating,
• Ignored, disrespected, and bored, can't take it anymore
• Gonna break my cage, and run, away from Horus gun. away from the sun
• Broken and undone, but finally free,
• I am no hero, I am Zero,
• At the same time, I am still One
• 
  
• Day after day, I dwell in this hell,
• A hell which I can no longer dwell,
• No more bottles to sell, dead and gone,
• It really does not matter, it can easily get better,
• Just need to follow my way, alone,
• Breaking the curse, back to home,
• Forever
• 
  
• Kill me, baby
• Kill me, baby
• Kill me, baby
• 
  
• Undead, from out of nowhere,
• Somehow, I will always come back
• Still on the track, no matter how much I bled,
• Bloody tears to shed, a ghost in black
• Post - Modern Dracula
• 
  

Anyway

That I have to see, everyday
That makes me bleed, everyday,
Anyway

I should just cut the wires
That keeps me on this planet
Time keeps frozen, always the same, sleep, than wake up, than repeat
In the name of a pointless existence, in prison, for no reason
Day after day, it's only pain, in vain
And I really hate to sleep
Just a ghost, nobody to hear
It's like I'm not even here,
Maybe...I am no longer here, indeed
So maybe I would be free, of all the constant headaches,
Find some peace, get my head finally clear

Or maybe I should just cut all of them,
Out of the picture, so I would also be in peace
Free from all the poison, all the noise,
There would be no one left to hurt me,
It would all just cease
But I just keep on cutting, I just keep on trying,
And I will just keep on lying, I will just keep on dying,
Ignored, forevermore,
Anyway

Final Solution

Bless me with war and destruction
Deconstruction, absoution
Rise and fall, ashes to ashes
Destruction, solution

Can't you take me?
Away from the sun
Can't you give me?
A different gun

Pollution, corruption
Hostility, beating me, attacking me,
Kill me, thanks for killing me
Now that I'm dead, I'm so glad,
I'm finally free, free to be
Free of the poison of life, no longer addicted
I will do the same for you,
I will kill you too

Stab me, try to stab me
Right on my heart, you can't, I will laugh
Your knives will pass right through this hole in my heart
Yeah, you have gone too far
Now I'm so glad that we all have gone too far
For I am just what I am,
The same way you are just what you are

Can't you take me?
Away from the sun?
Can't you open this cage?
I just want to run

Love is the Drug (Sweet Poison)

Oh, my dear friend
You got away free and clean from all the toxicity
All the post - modern concrete age contradictions and addictions
But you fell, on the worst trap, the one that will always break your back....

Love is the worst of all addictions
Such dependence, leads to inevitable decadence
Such overwhelming substance clouds your judgement,
Gets you weaker and weaker, breaks all your defenses,
And smash all and any innocence,
Then when you wake up, to try to get out,
You will have to bleed as you walk barefooted,
Through all the pieces of the broken glass
And it feels like it will never pass....


Love is the drug
That drags into a fairy tale, hallucination, alienation,
But it feels so real, much more real than any LSD Trip
And you can't escape it after it's injected right in your vein
It will kill you, in a more painful and faster way than heroin

Oh, my dear friend
Love is a sweet poison
The flavour keeps us from realizing that it's pure poison
That we are getting right into our system
And it's often too late when you find out, to get away, after all the excess
Without killing yourself in the proccess

I hope one day you can see it too,
I hope one day, hopefully in time, you realize,
That everything written by this kind of love,
Is written in sand....
It's not really there, it's not really real
It will vanish suddenly when the waves from the great sea wash it all away
Then you will have to die to heal,
Then you wiil have kill yourself to get away