In the Presence of Absence

Just as blurry as the end of the beginning, and the begnning of the end,

When I saw you, I thought I always seeeing right through the fog,

But only when I saw right through you, I could see, 

All that there was to see, among hogs, androids, in Zog

I somehow learned to be one of them, when the acid rain finally has melted,

All of my skin, and any line, was so subjective and hard to define,

Then I finally realized, washed away by the acid rain, so divine,

There is really no wrong or right,

No difference bettwen darkness and light,

In naked pride,  in black and white,

I know that as I look at myself and I abide,

Then, you, the night, will be mine,

No need of any line, 

As we melt entwined

And when my skin melt completely, by this acid rain,

Finally, there is no more pain,

Born naked, and died naked,

It started and ended the same way, plagued

Then, looking in the mirror, free of all of my skin,

I see what there is to see, what is really needed,

You can onlly appear once you have vanished, you can only get up after you fall,

I see this line, and this line is too thin,

Between, to lose and to win,

And sometimes there is just no difference at all

There is no never or forever,

But something before and after all that,

I wish I could go back,

But we can only move forward from wherever we are,

So we just keep on walking, no matter how far,

Because to walk is the very nature of what we are

And I wonder where are you now, 

No name, no shame,

A insane game,

Yes, I know,

We all get uglier as we grow,

But where would you be now,

If you really existed, if any of us had ever existed,

And if we don't, all that we see, all that we say, all that we call,

Would it make any difference at all?

Oh, bless me, my mistress, under the moonlight,

Bless me, and guide me in my long way back home,

My dear mistress, through the night, embrace me,

Kiss me with your cold lips, and finally, let me be, set me free,

For I am too tired, and I have become far too wired,

So please, make it cease, take me away from this vicious drug called life,

That is nothing but a terrible cosmic warfare mistake,

Please, make it all cease, so I will be finally in peace,

And I'm never, never coming back,

Not for me, or for anyone else, once I reach the end of the track,

Oh, take me home, I am way too alone, I am way too gone,

Kiss me with yor could lips, take me to where our family sits,

Erase, this terrible mistake, then I will never come back,

Oh, please, embrace me, my only and eternal mistress, 

My old companion, my dear Death!

Tempus Fugit

You say you won't fall
Just because of your dead daddy
You don't realize how it all comes to that
Well, bitch got issues and that's a fact,
I have issues too, you are dead, and I'm dead too,
But not because of you

I'm going after everything, anything
After it all dries up, it gets kinda easy,
Just squeeze the trigger, just use all the ammo that you can get,
Just sit on the table and bet, just get sleazy,
If you don't have any gun, then you better just run,
In the end, it all comes to that,
We are all dead, and that's a fact

To all the liars and the murderers,
To all the hunting and being hunted,
To kill and to be killed,
To all our stupidity

I also said I would not fall,
But well, we all like it raw
Bitch got issues, too weak to get drunk,
Then it becomes a dumb scavenger hunt
Guess my reward was to get high enough to be sober,
And finally see how is the appeareance of a real angel
Maybe not, I got issues too,
But it's all about crossing the dusty road and discover

To all the liars, to all the muderers,
To all the players and all the prayers
You are scared, well we all are,
No matter how much we deny, because clearly all this shit
Has gone too far
I don't know who I am, do you know who you are?
All I know is that we need to get aboard this car

If you don't have any run, so now you better run,
All the ammo that you can get, the table is set,
Run, straight to the sun,
Melt as one, meet your destiny, in the end of the road,
In the middle of the desert, them maybe we will have some dessert

Run to the sun, with your gun,
We shall melt as one,
There is only one fact,
no matter how much we deny,
We are all dead

Worst Enemy

I can't sleep
I can't sleep
I can't be me
I can't be free
I can't live
At least, I can cease to bleed

I am the one to protect you from
Your worst enemy, hiding within
I am the protect you from
All the things you do and say, against yourself
I am the protect you from
Every inner sabotage, any mistake

I can't sleep, if I sleep,
I will have to wake up
I can't sleep, or they will come to get me
I'm terrified for I know I'm about to fall asleep,
And in the moment I fall, they will all be ou to get me,
Again

I can't protect you from
All the ghosts living in your head
If you turn your brain off,
In this room you go to,
I have no access,
Please, try to get somehing out of it,
Try to get some rest, stop yelling fr help
No one, not even I can save you, from
Yourself

I can't sleep, I can't sleep,
If I sleep, I can't controle the way it bleeds,
I'm used to all of it, bleeding constantly,
But if I'm asleep, I can't swim,  and it all starts to flood,
And I start drowning in my own blood
And this can't be good

I can't be,
I can't be me
I don't even know, who am I
Or if I should even be anything at all
I can't leave, and I can't live
All the time, I'm just too sick,
All the time, all this time, I just fall
There was a time where I always had someone to call
Now I see I finally lost it all

So I maybe now I can be
Whatever I am really supposed to be,
Now I can see I'm starting to heal
And I feel so good
When I just don't feel
Anything at all
Now I'm ready to be,
What I must be
Now I see, that at least
It can finally cease to bleed

Whatever I say, it all goes away,
Whatever I try, I always just die,
It's all just a big lie, it's all in vain,
And seens that the constant whispers
Hold the only way to stop all the
Pain

So you finally woke up
I was here waiting for you
So glad to see you again,
Now just try to breathe, and let's get up
It seens like you have been dreaming,
Actually, you were just bleeding

But now i'm here to protect you from
All these ghosts living in your head,
Now I am here to protect you from
All the screaming and all the craving for death
Now I am here to protect you from,
Your worst and most dangerous enemy,
Yourself

Forever Never Ever

I never thought I would
And never thought I could
But then, I just should

See, through through the memories,
Through the statues eyes, as they start to bleed,
Addicited, bleak

You were so sure, now you seen so lost, you should be ashamed, of being just the same,
When you know you could be so much more, I guess there are things you choosed to ignored,
Now we are all so bored, scorched, we should be carrying that torch, what happened to the torch?
It keeps on growing, but all we can do is to sever, sever, keep it on, incessantly,
Sever, sever, for worse or for better, it does not matter,
Forever, never, ever

I remember that crow,
And I remember it's long lost glow
It were some really strange times,
Still the best, of our lives,
Right before everyone started to die
They tell us all, that we can fly,
But guess what, it's just another lie
That's why we fall, everytime we try

I never thought you would, even tough I knew you could,
But is it really, what you should?
The statues are starting to move, slowly,
Hungry and annoyed steps, unmerciful and coldly
I will be flowing, on this flood,
As the statues cries it all out,
The greatest flood, on these tears of blood

It's not bad, or good,
Just keeps on flowing,
Disease keeps on spreading,
And all I can do is to sever, sever,
For worse, for better,
In the times we used to wait for a letter,
In the times where it's all red,
Now that nobody cares,
Now that we all gone mad,
And all the skin have been shed,
It does not matter,
Forever, never, ever

Without You Around

It's too pointless
Without you around
It's too painful
Without you around
It's too empty without you around
It's all incomplete, and I can't compete,
With all the coldness and the time bombs, inside of me,
Without you near,
Nothing lost, nothing found,
It just makes no sense, the daily downfall, not at all
Without you around

Time, slowly kills me inside,
Without you around
I'm going under, underground
Without you around

I learned to suffer in silence, and I don't expect you to understand,
But I'm just a satellite, I need your light to shine
So all I can do is to wait, and helplessly crave for your presence
I try to not make any annoying sound
But It just does not makes any sense,
Without you around

PAX6

Dramatically changed
Bent and strangled
Under a moon moving in desolated skies
Dancing and hiding,
Behind the clouds
This is when the flag dies
As the raven flies,
And the eagle no more cries

Her smile,
So charming
The life in her, so bright
Out of reach, getting blind, outtasight
Then you realize

Better than Before

I'm sorry, it's not my fault
But you already know it
I can't stop it, I'm made of flaws
Can't hold anything properaly, let it all fall,
With my Edward's Scissorhands, with my claws

But i'm not whatever I was before,
I'm working, to deserve something more
And even if it hurts, I understand,
Maybe I should really be ignored

I'm sorry, I'm rotten to the core
But you already knew it
I can't help it, it's not my fault,
I'm made of so many flaws
A freak, a creep,
And I know it, but

It won't be like before
I'm not whatever I was anymore
I'm working to deserve to be loved,
Please, forgive me,
And don't unlock your door

It's being written,
A brand new me
It's being built,
What I really am supposed to be
Rotten to the core,
Made of flaws, now no longer ignored,
Traced and eliminated, one by one
So maybe I'll be someone
So maybe I'll be worthy of something more,
Definitely, whatosever, something better than before

One of a Kind

Ancient spirit in the shape of youth
Arrived from some unknown dimension,
To change all the game
Indigo skills tat can heal or kill

It all makes sense in her remarkable presence,
Injecting everyone with such unique essence

In the realm of zeros, she is one,
Both cruel and kind,
They seek weak spots to attack, but they don't find,
Cause there's none, so you better run, she always carries
Some kind of gun
If you never found, you won't,
One of a kind

In a mission with no intermission,
Taking over as there is no game she cannot play,
since she starts walking, nothing stands in her way
Selfish, and selfless,
In light and darkness,
Perfect balance of duality

In life and death,
Pain as a fuel,
spinning the wheel, in any duel
In the forsaken realm of zeros, she is one,
Always on the run,
Stealth in plain sight,
No one knows about her design
You can search for any weak spot, you just won't find,
One of a kind