Out of Order

Sleeping disorder,
Eating disorder,
Obsessive - Compulsive disorder,
General anxiety disorder,
24/7 disorder

Disorder, disorder,
All I am, all the time, disorder
In every thought, in every breath, in every move I make,
In every wave I break,
It's there, it's disorder
Too much disorder,
I'm getting out of order

Be proud of me , I'm a PHD - Permanent Head Damage,
OCD is in everything I hear, everything I do, everything I see, everything I will ever be,
Name me the God of decadence,
I represent sickness just by my unwanted presence
I carry the curse, bringing confusion and disorder everywhere I go,
That's my essence, my purpose, after all,
A Uatu, To watch all fall

Sensorial disorder,
Breathing disorder,
Split Personality disorder,
Mood disorder,
Bringer of disruption and destruction,
A small part of final conclusion, final solution

Desintegrate, fix the mistake,
But I'm still trapped on this place
Must have done something wrong along the way,
Something I was not allowed to, defy the software, probably
Anyway, now why care?
It was decided this is how it will be, constantly, eternally
Symbol of defeat and disgrace, left to rot,
On this pathetic and weak carnal cage

God of disease, unnatural born freak,
Born already deceased, born already torn,
Sent by a ancient call, to walk on this planet as the scorn
Too tired, no longer wired,
Wasted, to go back home is all I still crave
Misplaced, how long will I still have to wait?

Now I am what I really am,
Have no problems, I'm a problem,
Have no disorders, I am a disorder
And now I'm definitely out, somehow proud,
As I get out of order