I'm with Stupid I'm with Myself

Man, i'm melting under the sun
I'm old, I'm bald, and everything affects me,
Including the weather
I need to pop a lot of pills and stuff
Just so I can feel a bit better
Can't you see, I just can't be me
Don't even know who is the real me like anymore
But yeah, that's what I am, a strange blend of life and death, are not you bored yet?
I'm just whatever, whatever makes me feel better, it will be like this forever
I wear this bullet belt while I look for any bills to collect,
I'm just not myself, I wish I was anybody else, as I melt
Damnit, I'm freaking dead

Freaking, sometimes freaking out, wish I could yell it all out loud
A freak, man, yeah, that's what I am
That's what I always was, that's what I always will be
I'm warning ya before you make the mistake of getting close me
Because my friend, not even I understand it myself, but I'm a freaking disease
I'm a freaking freak
It's so plain to see
But let's go, forget about all that shit
Forget about all of it
All the constant earthquakes and hurricanes that get my head spinning,
Yeah, all the time in my head, in my freaking head
Don't even know anymore if I'm losing or if I'm winning
Or if it still even matter
Damn, man, yeah, it will be like this forever
I'm enslaved, as I melt
I'm enslaved to whatever I am, man
I'm enslaved to myself

I'm a freaking freak
And I know I should be long deceased, I'm fully aware I should not even exist, to begin with
And I know I'm nothing but a stupid mistake and that in this planet, I have no place
That I should be erased, that all my DNA is plagued
So sick of your world, so sick of me, so sick of all of it
I can't even be realy myself, as I melt under the sun
It will be like this forever, but it makes me feel better
When I think, that I'm not the only one
This thought, of my freaky nature, as sadistic as masochistic,
As limited as a statistic,
That I'm not the only one, to melt under that same sun
And i'm not the only one that was shot by the bullets of this same gun