Deadly Silence

It's not confortable, definitely brings no peace
This deadly silence just makes the inner enemy increase,
Remembers me how all this pain and these voices will never cease
Alone and broken, I yelled for help, untill my voice died
Yeah I'm a loser, I'm weak
But at least I tried

It became clear, how it all disappeared,
And no one was going to rescue me,
Or even talk to me
So I talk to them, as I can no longer ignore them
The inner enemies, keeping me strong against the enemies out there,
The only way to survive dwelling in this hell, surrounded by them
All the enemies, out there to get me,
All my friends, everyday more away,
Maybe I should just let them be,
Maybe I should just let them live in peace,
And make it all cease,
All the little that's still left of me

It's not something I can avoid, thrown in the void
Definitely a weak loser who can't make it alone
Just a virus, just a problem
Yeah, but at least I admit it, I admit it

I've failed life, I've failed death,
Just a collection of flaws, spawn of all human sickness,
I wish I was wrong, when I was that child staring at the future,
And looking away in despair, realizing there was no future at all,
It was just time bombs in endless countdown, exploding one by one,
Now it's all gone

I wish I was wrong, but how else could it be?
I always knew I would end up that way
With no more boards to play,
No place to stay
A pariah, wasted, with nothing left to say
Completely alone, I always knew everyone would go away,
One by one
Why would they stay, anyway?

I know I'm just a mistake, a disease
But I always did my best
Just wish I was allowed to rest
But there's no one to hear if I need to speak,
There's nothing left for me,
I wonder, how can I get out of here?
Too much noise in my head,
And this deadly silence, slaying me
Will it ever cease?
I will walk, someone just show me the door, please