I Gave Up, Finally

All this time, all these years
I kept making the same mistake
Always trying to communicate,
Always trying to establish a connection
But I failed, just another failure for my vast collection

No matter how loud I speak
It´s like if I was ghost, it´s like I was not even there
I always did my best, always tried to make you proud
But whatever I do, whatever I say
You just don´t seen to care

I´m doing time, and would it be my crime
Not being the first one to born?
Or was it being born?
Whatever, anyway, I´m torn

All this time, all these years
I did all I could to have your respect, to be your friend
But no matter how many times, or how many ways I tried to explain
You could never understand….

So I finally gave up
I´m just your problem, your mistake
It will ever be this way, I won´t try to change it anymore
Can´t keep on dealing with the pain, of being ignored
I will give you, all the peace
Because I will speak no more, my voice has finally ceased

I said and did all I could
I always did the best I could
I´m sorry if it was not enough for you
I never wanted to be here, in first place
I´m only here because I´m your mistake
I´m just your unwanted problem

 I tried to fix it, you should have let me jump off that window
So we both would be free
It would all be already solved,
I will never understand why the hell you saved me
Now we are both full of problems…..

All this time, all these years
I tried to establish a connection
I tried to get close to you, and it was denied
So I´m stopping now, I can´t go on dealing with rejection
I woke up from denial, anything I do about it will be in vain
So I will just have to find a way, to learn to deal with this pain

So I finally gave up
I know I did all I could
I know I did my best
Now I will let it be, now I will let it rest
You were always around, but it´s like you are not really here
I´m right by your side, and still you don´t see my heart bleeds

 So I will annoy you no more
I will speak no more
I will disturb you no more
I will close the door, I will give you peace
I accept the defeat, my voice has finally ceased

I finally gave up
Will disturb no more
Will not beg for attention anymore
I will close the door, and in silence I will be
No need to worry anymore, you are free from me