Straight to the Grave

Another night starts, my mind is already spinning,
Stuck in the middle of nowhere, time seens to be frozen,
Just a part of my constant prison, already lost track of it,
Going blind, looking over my shoulder, wondering when my sentence will be finally over
How did I ended up that way? Lost and alone, when I look around, there's just me,
The ghosts of the past, the haunting shadows in the walls, closing in,
And that's all

Future, totally uncertain, growing apathy, every step that I try to take, is just another mistake,
The world wants my head served on a plate, they are almost getting it, there are so many enemies, I don't know what I did of wrong, to end up in this song,
I was probably too dumb, I don't know, now I am too numb,
All I can feel is pain, more and more, day after day, everyday,
When I look around, lost and abandoned, I think about the future, and it seens that there's none

Am I gone?
I wonder, am I gone?
Maybe i'm just done

Maybe it was all just a really big mistake, and seens like I will be gone, closer and closer,
As the walls keep closing in, and I can't breathe, it seens, that it's really all in vain,
All my efforts, and now all I have is this pain,
Seens like I'm really a mistake, getting closer and closer to the end, I wonder if this is the epilogue, getting aboard a bullet train, soon to be erased,
Straight to the grave

Way, is there a way?
Is that all?

Still in exile, for...I don't know, like I said, already lost track of time,
In this shakesperian monologues nobody really wants to hear, but they keep on hammering in my head, incessantly,
It really feels like Hamlet, no surprise that I can relate,
But I don't need any revenge, just need a change,
Just need to go back home, and follow my way, as a king with no throne,
That's all I need, but maybe it's too late, when I look at the mirror, I don't know what's still left of me,
I just need to go back home, is that really asking too much?
I've been already, waiting, for so long,
Thrown in prison, for no reason, season after season,
I'm getting rotten, all rivers must flow, I'm never recognized, why I have it all denied?
I don't know anymore, but well, at least I tried

I don't really know what the hell is going on, too tired, maybe I'm just done,
Everything's gone, everybody's gone,
No idea what I did of so wrong, to end up that way
Everyday, day after day, seens like a eternity, will I get away?
The walls closing in, more, and more,
It's just too much pain to ignore
As I still try to find a way, in need of rescue, but no one really care,
No one really hear, sometimes all I want is my head to be clear,
All the enemies, they keep on attacking, even tough there's nothing left to break,
Undead, wide awake,
So tired, fading away, fading away,
Heading straight to the grave

On this hollow nights, Death keeps me company
But not even Death wants to take me
So I keep on wandering in nothingness, tortured and bruised,
A phantom and pointless existence, floating in total emptiness,
I just keep my essence, as all I try, all I say, is in vain
I see now, the portrait of nothing, no future,
Everything going down the drain,
Damn, I don't want to get aboard this train!

Way, is that a way?
Everybody's away,
Is that's all?
No one hear, no one hear, no one hear,
When I call

So ironic, that I was born and raised,
Among the worst kinds of criminals and thieves,
And I should be just one of them, but in the end I was the one stolen, I was the one broken,
I kept my integrity, but for what price? They stole my dignity, I had the natural right of living denied
My efforts were never really recognized, I'm going blind, future is getting outta sight
So ironic, how I was always right in the middle of the scum, still I never felt tempted to join them,
I refused so many opportuinities, now when I look back, I kind of regret,
But whatever, now it's too late, it's so ironic, that in such scenario, I never even picked up a gun,
Still I was convicted without commiting any crime,
I was denied every chance, even any right of self - defense,
I am always pointed out as the one who offends,
And all I wanted, all I needed, was to be on my own,
Well, maybe not the way I planned, seens like I am finally going to rest,
Maybe I just have no future, maybe i'm just part of the past,
My heart keeps beating in vain, feeding the pain,
All in vain, going down the drain
I was so abused, feel so confused, getting consumed,
Damn, I don't want to get aboard this train!

Hello? Anybody hear?
Anybody here?
Oh, it was just the echo of my own voice,
You know? I wish just for once I had a choice

I don't know why , I still try,
In the end I always fail, I'm gonna die
In my silent despair, no one really seen to care,
I still try to save myself, but I really don't know, if it's just too late
If i'm not really supposed to escape, all I know is that I can't go on with nothing but pain to feel,
So misplaced, unable to heal,
Head over heels, lost and alone, everyone's gone, everything's gone,
Not even Death wants me, still I struggle,
It's just survival instict probably, I don't really know anymore,
All I know is that I deserved something more


Maybe it's just the epilogue,
Maybe it's just the way it ends,
At least, I know I did my best,
So lost and alone,
Seens like nobody is going to save me , I keep trapped in time, I have no shelter
Okay, whatever, maybe it's jst time to be laid to rest,
Maybe there's just no future to me, I see everything disappearing,
Right in front of me, so fast,
I'm just part of the past,
Yeah, seens like I really won't be saved, getting erased,
Everyday, faster and faster, day after day,
Fading away, fading away,
I'm just a stupid mistake, heading straight to the grave

Pleased to meet you, pleased to meet me,
It's so scary, as everything disappear,
Don't know if that's the end of a chapter, or the epilogue of the book,
Each way, I'm avoiding to take a look,
I just do what I must do,
Hoping something will work right, this time,
Hoping I can get away, before the walls smash me, suffocated,
Getting erased, spiritual starvation, see no salvation,
Maybe they will have my head on the plate, after all,
When I look around, ghosts and shadows dancing,
All around,
And that's all

Lost and alone, maybe it was all really just a big mistake,
Heading straight to the grave

Am I gone?
I wonder, am I gone?
Maybe I'm just done, maybe i'm just done